The Doubter
This is an observation I’ve been having about myself, but it may be applicable to others as well.
Within me lie two selves. One is me, the real me, and the other is my Doubter.
The doubter does not feel confident in the sense necessary to succeed.
Failures cast upon the doubter make the entire person (us) seem to feel like a failure.
I have come to terms with the fact that this is a deep overreaction. We are not our negative emotions, no matter how firmly we stick to the conviction of that doubter’s mind. The doubter is seeing a distorted, blackened version of the world, while the real me struggles to be heard.
The doubter seems to react to things, as if they were potential threats, when the real me wants to experience the reality in any way it presents itself. The real me is hoping to overcome change itself.
For in reacting to things and not considering consciously what we’re doing, we begin to internalize a perpetual state of self-negating passivity. The real me is just trying to be human in spite of that.
The types of things that bring out the doubter are people we don’t enjoy the company of, and circumstances that are stressful and constantly changing. The real me sees this as a chance.
We have seen much in this world and began to feel it is reality.
But the doubter is a conditioned self, it is not us!
We have always wanted to know that the world recognizes us.
So shall we take the chance to recognize ourselves and defy the doubter?
I hope so.
Please take this piece of writing as something that came from the heart, not the ego.
Thank you.
